Hi sayang,
just gonna dedicate this post to you because i'm tired of keeping it in.
I guess these few days i've been really cold to you sometimes,
and giving you really late replies, like few hours once.
But..
I'm sorry i just can't forget,
you were like super flirt,
everytime i play with your account, sometimes end up reading your past chats,
i feel very.. cheated on,
everytime i think about the past,
i just cry because it really hurts knowing you did all that before,
Remember this photo?
This was taken way back in September last year,
when we just started,
it felt so surreal because of the way we met.
but slowly aft we got tgt you treated me worse each day,
and eventually we broke off for quite a long time and many things happened...
i wouldn't say it here but...
i just wished you knew it earlier and didn't do all those shit,
It was only after your birthday.
When i tolerated enough of it,
then i told you i'm done with you.
I didn't want to talk to you anymore,
and kinda made you cry on your 18th birthday,
but i guess it was because of that then you realised?
things became much better after that.
instead of me going down,
you're coming all the way down to fetch me every saturday morning without fail,
when i'm finally free on a weekday,
you would come meet me without any hesitation,
every night you will send a goodnight text without fail,
joined LoL to accompany me,
trying to do everything to make me smile once again
haha this photo we really do somehow alike leh.
you're trying you best to make me trust you again,
you stopped texting other girls already,
you stopped chatting girls on fb already,
you made me your first priority now.
you're always caring for me now.
but since then, you also got jealous very easily.
and everytime you became jealous you would be ultra moody.
and everytime you were moody i would fuck care you.
leave you alone to deal with the jealousy,
i know i shouldn't do that and i'm gonna try to change alright
now everytime we go out i know i'm like super irritating,
but you just tolerate all the way,
you always give me forehead kisses when we're on escalators and when before i leave you,
you would always send me home now no matter how late it is,
then being super tired you travel back to jurong.
when i live an hour + away from you.
not wanting me to pay during our date so you take your next week allowance just to pay for me,
helping me do my hair when it's messy,
and carry my stuff when we go out.
Maybe i'm naive or what but..
From then i felt like you changed your ways,
you didn't treat any girl like this before,
you're doing everything possible to gain back my trust.
And i'm gonna try my best to put it in you again,
whenever you're jealous..
please just tolerate me,
maybe one day i will trust you like i did before.
but for now..
please just don't give up on me.
i didn't give up on you for the past 11 months.
i'll try to give you goodnight messages,
i'll try to message you first thing when i wake up,
i'll try to care more because that's all you asked from me.
i'll try to tell you iloveyou more from now on.
sometimes it takes people to fall apart,
to know that they're better together.
i don't ever want you to go.
190911. ♥
