Hi readers. Long time no blog!
Yes, i've changed my blogskin :-)
But it's not 100% done okie. Haven't done the preamble part yet.
& apparently the twitter widget has a bug.
Haven't camwhored in a long time, cause basically i'm grounded.
I know i look tired. Exams = Mugging.
And i didn't bother concealing my eyebags.. lazy :D
And as normal, going to blog thru a film of my photos. Yay.
Today went church!
Not much, the past one week has been a wreck for me.
So basically this happened...
Yes! And as normal i fought with him again.
He was a fuckin bitch i swear.
You can't just apologise and think it will magically fix my heart k.
Tried to seek refuge in another guy, but i couldn't get him off my mind.
[ Yala, call me a bitch or w/e k. ]
Didn't talk to him for about a week.
Till his birthday.
And it wasn't very pleasant from there.
I know heartbreaks are normal, and i guess i shouldn't whine.
But i'm really really lost right now.
Wondering to myself if i should go back,
but i totally lost all trust in him. Again.
He realised he was in fault, not me. But is that enough?
Is wanting him to fight for another chance too much?
I know i'm just bloody fifteen. Or 15 in September.
But even tho i'm young, i got feelings too k.
Have you ever got the feeling that, you feel so damn depressed.
But no one just fuckin takes you seriously cause you're like, 'underage'.
So freakin pissed when i expect words of comfort,
but instead they come PET MY HEAD and say don't sad la XMM.
I'm like " alright. " on the outside, but inside i feel like smashing your face into pieces.
I'm never taken seriously. Never.
Feel so frustrated.
Yesterday cried like 5 times in a day?
My left eye swollen now :\
Bitch please. Not all cause of him k. Got other reasons too but i rather not say.
I'm just tired of the fact people don't take me seriously.
Even when i'm fucked up angry.
I know i can take jokes. And i can play with you at times.
But when i'm serious, set the jokes aside can?
I'm starting to hate growing up. But other than that,
i didn't really appreciate my primary school life that much.
Y'know why? Cause i always got bullied.
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This is me in primary three(?)
Laugh all you want.
I won't get offended by any criticism you have on that picture.
I was fuckin fat in primary school ok. Being fat isn't fun.
Explains why i have extremely chubby cheeks.
I'm so irritated when skinny people complain that THEY ARE FAT.
I mean. You're bloody UNDERWEIGHT, FAT WHAT FAT.
Getting bullied pushed me to desperate measures.
In secondary 1 i lost weight, and successfully dropped about 11kg?
Haha. But society is never satisfied with anything you do.
And i became too damn tired to care already.
Whatever!!!
This blogpost is for a rant.
Super stressed up these few days.
And not being able to go out and have fun kills me a little more inside.
Stay tune? Haha.
Bye readers! ♥
