Hey.
I know i look like shit aiya.
Today school was kinda sucky? :(
My test results all fucking sucks.
Study for nothing, must study harder now.
Tomorrow got emath&ss test, next day physics test.
next week amath, and just so many shit tests.
fucking kill me -.-
And yeah, my previous blog post is like full of depression.
I guess.
That day, when i deleted all the messages & changed back his contact.
A second later, he texted me.
Talked very cold for the next few moments.
Then when i was sleeping, he sent me long messages, apologising.
*O*
Teach me.
How do i tell the guy i've been loving for the past 6 months to fuck off.
It's not a long time, but at least it's something.
Just can't forget 190911.
Woke up, text again. Finally asked him.
And i guess, i was too soft-hearted.
*O* *O* *O*
Special, you better keep your promise. :(
I put here big big so it would be etched into your mind.
I know, i'm so paranoid to screenshot this.
Haha, my friends asked me to SS it.
Mhm. But there's something else i want to say.
Yeah. Maybe special did something he shouldn't have done.
But I guess one big part of why i forgave him, was cause..
he reminded me so much of me.
Shit people.
Makes me wonder, why everytime i go his house & see him use com.
Always have my twitter & blog at his favourite's bar.
Makes me happy mhmmmmm.
And yeah you probably realised i've been starting to call him special.
Made him call me special too.
Just don't want to hear the word, dear, anymore.
Even though everything is back to normal. (Kinda)
I still can't help it but feel so bad for her,
Am i selfish? Am i stupid?
I had him in the end instead of her.
He came saying sorry to me, asking me to stay.
And what she got was just ignorance.
If i was her, i would be fucking upset & shag lah.
I don't know.
What has 2012 become. It's even worse than 2011.
2011 was bad enough.
Will everything become better from now on?
Bye.
