Lolol, well hey.
Hm, i woke up @ 6 today, weird, schooldays always wake up late.
Normal days so freaking early zzz -_- !
Now it's 7am, suppose to meet bby and hour later,
but i shall let him sleep, stupid babi <3
Haha, suppose to go city harvest ytd..
but was tempted to go meet bby, so long time never see him alr.
Nvm, i shall go church today then.
But aft that should be meeting bby for lan again lol.
Haha made a new friend, Alvin chan :)
Joker, always like want to compare whose eye bigger hahaha!
Alrights, don't feel like saying much more,
kthxbye.
To someone, you should know who you are after reading this..
Shawn told me what you say alr, don't blame him, i wanted to know.
I tried making up & we were okay again,
But i could sense the next day, I did something wrong again..?
I don't know what i did which made you so mad again..
Back before, when everything didn't fall apart yet,
I know you didn't want me to slack w him,
but what you expect me to do..?
We always talk on the phone late till night, cause it's the only time i can talk to you,
and then slowly we didn't.
You never talked much to me in school alr,
we both know why we couldn't but still..
when i attempted to talk, you may not realise but you actually ignored me..
Sorry if i just wanted your attention for once.
So i gave up & went to my other friends.
then i also went to him, that's why i slacked w him..
I know the holidays really drifted us apart, cause of some stuff we should know.
I did cheer you up, i even offered to go your house to offer you a shoulder to cry on..
To tutor you in case you didn't know how to do your schoolwork..
Sorry if i didn't cheer you up much,
and in school it's not that i didn't want to cheer you up,
i didn't know how to anymore cause we didn't talk face to face for a really long time..
The reason i only talk about him now,
Is cause i can't find any other subject for us to talk anymore,
I feel really really awkward talking about him to you,
and i knew you didn't like it, so did you realise?
That i actually changed the subject, i asked about you instead..
but the conversation couldn't last anymore, like last time.
You said that i was always happy with him, you like seeing me happy,
but not really, actually, i'm not always happy, sometimes i even tear alittle,
but he lent his shoulders to me, and he knows how to cheer me up :\
That's the reason why i'm happy with him.
Sorry, i know i've changed,
but i have my reasons my dear.
And even aft all my explaining, you still think i'm a bitch now..
then let it be, i'm too tired of explaining :'\
And i don't know what to do anymore, cause everything i do now is wrong.
I'm too scared of saying this to you face to face, or through phone anymore..
i don't know why so i'm putting it here.
but i can seriously tell you that, i really missed you.
And the photos we took last time,
which you can't upload cos only we both know why.
Will remain as our happy memories.
I don't know after reading this,
You'll come talk to me & we'll talk this out..
Or you just gna let it all go..
it's up to you.
Oh , it's around 8 now, lol wow i took an hour writing this post. I'm speechless.
